Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Aneurysm -- ICU

I was diagnosed on September 16, 2010 with a Subarachnoid Brain Hemorrhage or Aneurysm. After arriving in the ER via ambulance, and getting the diagnosis, I knew it was not good news. That was about the last rational thought that I had for a few weeks. I was feeling so bad and was very nauseated along with the head and neck pain. I don't even rememberer going for the CT scan. I had started to lose time at that point, I guess.

The Dr. Explained that I would be admitted to ICU that night for observation, and until a surgeon could repair the Aneurysm the next morning. Poor Mike. I can't imagine how he must have felt at that point. I've been told his boss from work came, as well as my mom and several others. If you were there that Thursday night, please remind me as I am trying to journal this and get it written down.

They took me to ICU on a gurney; I was so confused; but it was also my first realization that things weren't good at all.

A male nurse named Paul was on duty.( I think I developed a hero crush on him--he was so caring) When he asked me to move from the gurney to the bed, I was first puzzled that they had done the surgery and that I still had all my street clothes. Even my shoes. I'm not sure what time it was, but I was still at work at 1:30 in the afternoon--- and I think Mike said I was sent to ICU by 8:00 PM. In those few hours, a lot was happening in my brain. Secondly, and more importantly, they had me try to stand for the transfer to the bed:

I could no longer stand up.

To be continued...

Friday, April 1, 2011

A short update

Where have I been? First, I went back to work part time in November '09 at my local craft store. Close to home (5 minutes) and flexible. Casual clothes and comfy shoes. And it worked with my crossing guard job too. I was hired as Seasonal help.

The job was fun. Stressful at times, well make that really busy more than stressful. It worked for me and worked for the store manager too. He invited me to hire on full time in April '10. By then I was being trained to cover the cash office one day per week and also, one of two department managers in Crafts. I quit my job as crossing guard around this time.

Mike and the kids have been getting along with work, school and various sports. Jason still plays baseball in high school and got his drivers license. He is currently a Junior. The twins, Ryan and Megan, are 5th graders and in a brand new school -a middle school. It serves 5th through 8th graders. Ryan is playing U11 Soccer and Megan is competing Level 5 gymnastics. Mike is still with his company for which we are more-than-ever grateful these days. Mike has always done a bang up job of caring for our family, but even more so in the last 6-7 months.

I worked full time all summer and juggled work with kids, sports, family, etc. It is tough. I had forgotten after being a SAHM. Still, my coworkers were nice and I was enjoying myself. As summer progressed, and the kids went back to school, work continued and we settled back into routines.

Thursday, September 16, 2010 started out like every other day. Showers, breakfasts, lunches made, kids to school and Mike and I to work. I wasn't scheduled to work that day; but we had a reset project to do in floral. I was offered extra hours and was happy to work them, in spite of a nagging cold. I feel that it was by God's hand that I was at work that day, and not home alone.

Shortly after lunch, I became ill while working with Lupe on the reset. It happened very fast. A sudden headache and excruciating neck pain, tunnel vision, nausea and profuse sweating. I was helped to the break room where many coworkers were with me. I texted Mike who came to the store. Someone called 911.

Although the paramedics didn't realize the severity of my illness and were not insistent on transporting me--- I was very certain something was not right. Mike agreed and we asked them to transport me anyhow. My other friend at work, Cindy, said she really began to worry when I didn't seem to realize my kids would need to be picked up from school.

It was interesting that the paramedics wore masks and started an IV too on the ambulance ride.

Upon arrival at the ER--- the medical staff was fabulous, quick and I don't know? Led by God?? I think so. While I have lost blocks of time that afternoon and evening, I do know this:

A CT SCAN was performed of my brain. Within a very short time we were told a diagnosis for my sudden headache, neck pain, nausea etc. I had suffered a Subarachnoid Brain Hemmorhage. I was scheduled for surgery and sent to ICU where I spent twelve days.

In my next several posts I hope to share some of my journey. The good, bad and the ugly and the frightening. By sharing I hope I can not only heal mentally, but maybe someone else could somehow benefit too.

May God bless me with the strength and the words to tell about my journey.

Friday, March 4, 2011

Anybody out there?

Hello! I'm still here. I have a long story to relate. although, i don't know how to start. My family is great though. How are you?